Distance Means Something Even If Someone Means So Much

You said all we need is trust, but I'm tired of  "Distance doesn't mean anything when someone means so much". What a bull hockey. It means something, it surely is. If not, why am I writing this on 12.58 in the morning after I take a midnight bath. I bet you don't know that I always take a hot shower if I'm in a bad mood. Yes, I do.

I can't figure out what is wrong. I do nothing wrong, so do you. They say if we're mature enough that we'd never blame circumstances. Whatever. Distance means something. I wish I can find out why, or how, or since when we become like this. Or is it just me? I'm the immature needy kid I always thought I am. Maybe I am.

So now what? What should I do? Being a female is painful enough. I hate the stereotype that women is the passive individual who waits. But it is what I'm doing now. Waiting for you, again. I wish I could do something important in my life so you could be proud of me or more, I can feel good about myself. I don't want to revolve around you. Now I feel lost and I don't know, I just don't know.

Just let me hear your voice a little more, pull me a little bit closer so I can cherish more. I don't mind if world is yours and I'll vanish like a dust. Tell me you love me and I'll be one happy girl again. I promise I'll push myself far enough to be where you are.